JM: Tell us about the pre-sentencing process: Tawnie: I don't know that there was one.
JM: Did you have police stop by your house for questioning? If not please give us details on how you came to be arrested. Tawnie: No. I was on pre-trial release which was revoked
when I freely
admitted to my probation officer that I had drank
alcohol (asking
for help), and put in jail with no bail. My
court appointed
attorney did not visit me or return calls to me in
jail so I had no
legal councel whatsoever. In court she indicated
I would not get
out of jail if I were to continue with my plea of
not guilty, so I
plead guilty in order to get out of jail (after 10
days). I was not
guilty, I just didn't want to sit in jail and I
was scared of that. The
second time the judge put me in jail for a week
when probation
reported I had been "out of compliance" with
treatment (I never
was, my treatment was transferred due to
transportation issues
only), it was a mistake on their part, neverthe
less I was not
permitted to defend myself and sat in jail for a
week due to their
paper mistakes.
JM: What was court like? Please give as many details as you recall. Tawnie: Intimidating. The Judge was hostile, derogotory,
mean, and I
thought very biased and unfair (Judge Haven). The
entire process
is scary, confusing, and intimidating. Court
appointed attorneys
are a joke and everyone knows it. There is no
real legal
represenstation throught his system unless you
have lots of
money (power). It was also very humiliating. You
feel like a child
getting a scolding. Honesty if not expected or
rewarded. It felt
very dehumanizing and impersonal for sure. Your
just meat for
their grinder is all (they are getting a pay check
from the
personal suffering of people, poor people)!
JM: What were your original charges? What did you end up being convicted of? Tawnie: 2 counts of domestic violence assault (I pled
guilty as charged in
order to be released from jail). I was not guilty
but the court
system is unfair if you are poor or if you suffer
from a mental
health condition &/or substance abuse problem.
The 2 usually
go together, and I am in recovery from
co-occurring alcohol
abuse and recurrent major depression/anxiety/ptsd.
I never
should've plead guilty, but at the time it felt
like a matter of
survival (do or die)......I felt despondent.